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Smiling Down
From My Eyes Series
Warnings: Slight yaoi implications.
Disclaimors: I don't own any of these characters *sniff sniff*
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You know... it gets kind of lonesome up here. You think I would be used to
it by now, it's been two years after all. Hard to believe...I only spent one
year with you and that one year changed my entire being.
All I can do is watch you. I guess it's better than nothing...but still I
would like to hold you in my arms just once. Look at what I'm
saying...you've made me weak, Wufei. All I can ever think about is you and
your smile. Heh...your smile, that sure was a rare moment. Like the time I
heard you laugh when I fell into the spring. It was rude of you, sure...but
that sound is permanently etched into my memory.
Do you still think of me? I don't know why I ask that, because I know you
do...I also know I won't get an answer. I'm the only one that ever see's
your tears, and you're the only cause of mine. Do you know I can see you
cry? You cry too much, love...
You pray to me, too...Gods how I wish I could answer your prayers.
And when you moan my name in your deep slumber, I would do anything...
anything...
to make those dreams come true.
But I don't understand why you fight. You say it's for me...and for justice.
But there is nothing you need to bring justice to...the only thing I know of
that is injustice is the fact that you never told me you loved me.
I told you once, you know... You were whimpering in your sleep. It was a
restless night for you...the nightmares had been plagueing you for the last
few nights. I had held you in my arms and ran my fingers through your hair,
whispering sweet nothings until you calmed down...I told you I loved you.
I'm ashamed that I didn't have the courage to tell you when you awoke, and
it was all I could do to keep from kissing your lips when you did.
It's all I can do to keep from kissing your lips now, even...
But times have changed for you, I know. Sleeping with the enemy? He's a very
honorable man, I respect your decision. I just wish you wouldn't feel the
guilt that you do when you lie in his arms. I'm proud of you, please know
that. There is no reason to feel guilty for loving him... love knows no
rules. You have proved to me that you are anything but weak.
As I said, all I can do for now is watch. I'll be your guardian angel, love.
I shall always smile down on you, Wufei.
~*OWARI*~